她比烟花寂寞……
任何一件事情,只要心甘情愿,总是能够变得简单。
apple @ 2008-09-10 13:41

        在梦里见到了苏可,依旧是那种活泼的样子,倒是我显得拘束了。我们一起压马路,吃街边的小吃,捧着大捧的爆米花一起看电影。电影中的角色悲伤时,她也跟着流泪;快乐时,她也跟着笑。能这样毫无顾忌地释放,与我的世界来说,大概也只有她了。你不会难过吗?电影毕,她问。我会痛。为什么不会哭?痛得太久,泪都变得慵懒了。怎么这样麻木?我有吗?嗯。
        我喜欢苏可,因为她的直接,也因为她总能触动我的痛。就像迷上了罂粟花,我喜欢她。可她不是罂粟是玫瑰。注定不属于我的世界。
        曲终人方散,可我的梦里,曲未终,人已散。我所拥有的,依旧是痛。我不会哭,我不要哭。是山顶的杂草就注定要选择那光秃秃的世界。我还不懂得哭泣。
        苏可是我记忆中的人,而藤宇会出现在我的身边。习惯沉默,与他,与我;习惯坐在广场上看跳舞的人们;站在步行道上看有人写字,行云流水;或是倚在墙上,看窗外的天。秋天的天总是这样纯净,一样的颜色。干净、圣洁。我喜欢这样的天,希望也会等到这样的纯洁人。可这个世界,竟连苏可也留不住。
        不会和藤宇一起去吃小吃或是看电影,但常常一起骑单车。我们一起发现了一座天一样纯洁的山,一座可以听见各种各样的鸟鸣的山。起名“星宇”,将我们最爱的字连在一起。这里,成了我们心中的圣地。
        SA是我生命中的有一个人,一个让我的心被赤裸裸的晒太阳的人。我甚至怀疑她是愚人节里的妖精,总能看穿欢笑背后的故事,在精明的把戏在她面前也显得苍白无力。她的话总觉得很灵异,似乎可以穿透人性。当你开始分析一个人时,你便会感到震撼。当你读懂一个人时,你就会恐惧与孤独。这是SA说的话,她说她就是这样。我说SA就是妖精。她说我是精灵。精灵与妖精的唯一区别就是,看透的,妖精会说出来,而精灵却在隔岸观火,你是。
       孙雷是同校第一届的男生,长得很精致。遇见过几次,是同一天,不同地点。而后才得知他就是大家议论纷纷的那个人。他长得很漂亮。我只承认这一点,对于其他,我不置可否。似乎关注他的人很多,但我喜欢坐山观虎斗。
       小T从学校里消失了,我还记得她的生日,她的号码。不知道他是否记得我的。应该会吧。她说过她会记得,记得那串永远不会拨错的号码。可我不敢拿起电话,我害怕听到“叮——”的声音,更害怕听到空号的提示音。
       旭,我的新同学。温柔,也很漂亮。和她说话,总要靠得很近,只有这样,才能听到她的言语。她很温柔,很乖,很认真。我会偷偷地看她认认真真地记笔记。她若抬头,我在瞥向别处。她安静得像一朵桃花,静静地开放。她很温柔,应该也很善良吧。温柔的女孩都很善良,我一直这样认为。
       君君怀疑我是冷血,埋怨我无视那些看笑话的人。我说我不喜欢和疯子跟白痴浪费细胞。对于厌恶的事,我看不见,也就无所谓什么的了。—喂,冷血,手这么凉。—没人疼。
       楼下有一个跑步的孩子,大概也是同校的。我又认识了一个见面不会打招呼的陌生人。
       
       今天在上楼梯是好像看见小七了,可是拐过去,就找不到了。是幻觉?我不知道。也许是吧。



 
apple @ 2008-09-07 12:23

        总有一些日子流逝,总有一些人离开,总有一些快乐袭来,总有一些悲伤挥之不去。总是突然间想起小T,于是下课的时候会奔到他教室的门口张望,然后失望的告诉自己他已经走了。然后一个人在走廊游离。就像小Y说的那样,我是那游离的核糖体,没有固定的附着位点,没有内质网顿时的肩膀做依靠,注定孤独。看那些海里美丽的小鱼,睡觉时也睁着眼睛,它们不需要爱,也从不哭泣。这是安妮说过的话,现在听来依旧感到悲伤。
       下课的时候教室里一如既往的喧哗,只不过多了几个专心致志的好孩子。高三就是这样吧,忙碌着,快乐着,可我只知道写小楷,横、竖、撇、捺,乐此不疲。日日朝朝,朝朝暮暮。朝九晚五的日子就这样一天天过去,很累却很充实。听同学在讲台上关于学习的一些建议,倍感震撼。“别人能做到的,你也一定能做到,所以不要妄自菲薄;你能做到的,别人也能做到,所以无需沾沾自喜。”学习,就这样注定成为了我的生命,一步一步,踏踏实实地被延续下去。第一次连续上七天的课,经历了高三的生活第一周,很兴奋。
        我只顾作我自己,所以请照顾好你自己,不要让我悲伤。我们都要快乐的长大,在黑暗的夜里也有星星的微笑。要像小王子一样,拥有自己的微笑的星星。所以,你要笑,你的笑很阳光。
        物理竞赛,我依旧是最后仅剩的几个考生之一。交卷后说老师再见,却发现我竟然认识这位老师,本想再次打招呼,却发现她已不记得我。于是离开。身边的位子只有这么多,有的人进来,就有人离开。本是路人,又何必如此呢。外面的阳光很灿烂,把我的心情也找的暖暖的,不仅仅为考试,也为他擦肩而过。只是道不同,所以未曾言语。如果可以,我希望我们能够做朋友,哪怕只是见面问声好,也总比陌生人这般擦肩而过得好。
       擦肩而过,无论是日子还是什么别的,都在这样飞过……


 
apple @ 2008-08-18 12:04

被厄运中伤,
被无奈刺痛,
在咫尺,却望尽天涯。
 
从痛苦中走来,
从遗憾中离去,
历史的导弹横亘时空,
在这一刻响彻华夏大地。
 
飞翔的战神,黯然神伤,
闪耀的明星,跌落尘埃。
命运的利剑刺伤我们稚嫩的心,
闪闪的寒光将希望劈开。
 
也许失去是因为曾经拥有,
也许离开是因为曾经来过。
即便倒下,也是一种站起,
即便陨落,也是一种飞翔。
 
是战神,就会站起来,
让嘘声如残花凋零。
是英雄,就要站起来,
让流言如烟消云散。
 
站起来,
让中国为你骄傲,
让世界为你喝彩!



 
apple @ 2008-08-17 16:05

Emmons repeats Athens tragedy






        After nine shots in the final of the Men's 50m Rifle Three Positions, Emmons was leading by 3.3 points over Ukraine's Jury Sukhorukov. Qiu Jian of China was in third place with one tenth of a point less. 

        However,everything can be changed.Everything can't be imangined.

  After that, history repeated itself. Emmons shot an amateurish 4.4 points on his last shot. Qiu Jian shot 10.0 to win the gold medal with a tenth of a point more than Sukhorukov, who scored 9.8 on his last shot. Four years ago in Athens, China's Jia Zhanbo was lifted from second to win gold when Emmons hit his neighboring target and earned zero on his last shot.

        God made a joke again!




 
apple @ 2008-08-17 13:31

        只要下定决心,所有事情都有可能发生。如果尽最大努力追逐梦想,一切皆有可能。有人说有些事情无法复制,但通过这件事足以证明,任何事情都是可能的。
                                                                                                        ——菲尔普斯

谈笑间,纪录灰飞烟灭。如果不是你,恐怕还不会有人想到一人狂揽8枚金牌,更不会有人惊喜于这一纪录!是你,身体力行,告诉世界什么是更快,什么是更高,什么是更强!加油,飞鱼!



以箭的速度冲到终点,博尔特笑傲赛场!
           震撼!!!!!!!!!!!

                  在最后10米处,令人不可思议的一幕发生了,博尔特突然减速,用力拍打着自己的胸脯,甚至还回头看了看身后的对手们。但即使如此,博尔特还是将旧的世界纪录扔进了垃圾堆。

    回头望月,9秒69,一个新的世界纪录诞生!在这个神奇的夜晚,注定要上演不一样的精彩!




bolt有闪电的意思,这个牙买加小伙子没有辜负自己的这个光荣的名字,和菲尔普斯一样,他也如同是来自另外一个星球的“异形”,给我们带来震撼,让一切皆有可能!




 
apple @ 2008-08-17 04:25

                                                  



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  昨日11点,鸟巢,女子100米短跑预赛。当法国和美国等运动员纷纷撞线后,一名身着白色运动服的女孩在她们身后10米远的地方依然奋力追赶。她就是伊拉克参加本届奥运会的唯一一名女运动员——达娜·阿卜杜勒拉扎克。12秒36,这是达娜的成绩,排名小组倒数第三。她的成绩最终让她无缘下一轮比赛,但她赢得了现场观众的掌声。因为,她能够参加奥运会,本身就已经胜过赢得奖牌的伟大。

  今年22岁的达娜在她15岁时开始练习跑步,17岁时成为职业运动员,主攻100米和200米短跑。她在训练过程中时常听到不远处的爆炸声。据报道,2007年11月,达娜正在训练场做跑步练习时,一声枪响,子弹从她身边擦过,打在了旁边的一棵树上。达娜只感到脚下一阵凉风——子弹竟从她的脚边穿了过去!极度惊吓之下,达娜当场晕倒。她说,在那次枪击之后,教练把她摇醒,说枪手冲着他们来的,必须马上走。但是,半个小时之后,他们又小心翼翼地回到了训练场,换个地方继续训练。

  “拥有一双好跑鞋是我一直以来的梦想。”为备战奥运会,达娜曾经到约旦的一处二手市场买到了一双二手跑鞋。“虽然鞋面有些破,”达娜说,“因为伊拉克国产的跑鞋质量不好,穿上一个星期就会破损,而进口的全新名牌跑鞋又太贵……”

        

  但就在她企盼北京奥运会到来的时刻,“伊拉克运动员将不能参加北京奥运会”的消息使她陷于崩溃。教练劝她再等四年,还可以参加伦敦奥运会,达娜哭着回答:“谁能保证我能活到2012年?”国际奥委会与伊拉克在最后关头达成了妥协,达娜终于可以参加奥运会了。

  一名美国的女律师得知达娜的故事后,为达娜邮去一双最新款的“新百伦”跑鞋,并通过卡塔尔多哈的一家银行汇去了达娜的训练经费及参加北京奥运会的旅费。这名资助者在给达娜的邮件中说道,“我不是体育迷,但我已经成了你的拥趸。”

  昨日上午,达娜如愿以偿站在了北京鸟巢体育场的跑道上。她为这短短的10余秒钟付出了太多。从她坚定地站在起跑线上那一刻起,这位来自伊拉克的女孩就已经被永久载入奥林匹克的史册。




 
apple @ 2008-08-15 12:19

In a little district west of Washington Square the streets have run crazy and broken themselves into small strips called "places." These "places" make strange angles and curves. One Street crosses itself a time or two. An artist once discovered a valuable possibility in this street. Suppose a collector with a bill for paints, paper and canvas should, in traversing this route, suddenly meet himself coming back, without a cent having been paid on account!

So, to quaint old Greenwich Village the art people soon came prowling, hunting for north windows and eighteenth-century gables and Dutch attics and low rents. Then they imported some pewter mugs and a chafing dish or two from Sixth Avenue, and became a "colony."

At the top of a squatty, three-story brick Sue and Johnsy had their studio. "Johnsy" was familiar for Joanna. One was from Maine; the other from California. They had met at the table d'h?of an Eighth Street "Delmonico's," and found their tastes in art, chicory salad and bishop sleeves so congenial that the joint studio resulted.

That was in May. In November a cold, unseen stranger, whom the doctors called Pneumonia, stalked about the colony, touching one here and there with his icy fingers. Over on the east side this ravager strode boldly, smiting his victims by scores, but his feet trod slowly through the maze of the narrow and moss-grown "places."

Mr. Pneumonia was not what you would call a chivalric old gentleman. A mite of a little woman with blood thinned by California zephyrs was hardly fair game for the red-fisted, short-breathed old duffer. But Johnsy he smote; and she lay, scarcely moving, on her painted iron bedstead, looking through the small Dutch window-panes at the blank side of the next brick house.

One morning the busy doctor invited Sue into the hallway with a shaggy, gray eyebrow.

"She has one chance in - let us say, ten," he said, as he shook down the mercury in his clinical thermometer. " And that chance is for her to want to live. This way people have of lining-u on the side of the undertaker makes the entire pharmacopoeia look silly. Your little lady has made up her mind that she's not going to get well. Has she anything on her mind?"

"She - she wanted to paint the Bay of Naples some day." said Sue.

"Paint? - bosh! Has she anything on her mind worth thinking twice - a man for instance?"

"A man?" said Sue, with a jew's-harp twang in her voice. "Is a man worth - but, no, doctor; there is nothing of the kind."

"Well, it is the weakness, then," said the doctor. "I will do all that science, so far as it may filter through my efforts, can accomplish. But whenever my patient begins to count the carriages in her funeral procession I subtract 50 per cent from the curative power of medicines. If you will get her to ask one question about the new winter styles in cloak sleeves I will promise you a one-in-five chance for her, instead of one in ten."

After the doctor had gone Sue went into the workroom and cried a Japanese napkin to a pulp. Then she swaggered into Johnsy's room with her drawing board, whistling ragtime.

Johnsy lay, scarcely making a ripple under the bedclothes, with her face toward the window. Sue stopped whistling, thinking she was asleep.

She arranged her board and began a pen-and-ink drawing to illustrate a magazine story. Young artists must pave their way to Art by drawing pictures for magazine stories that young authors write to pave their way to Literature.

As Sue was sketching a pair of elegant horseshow riding trousers and a monocle of the figure of the hero, an Idaho cowboy, she heard a low sound, several times repeated. She went quickly to the bedside.

Johnsy's eyes were open wide. She was looking out the window and counting - counting backward.

"Twelve," she said, and little later "eleven"; and then "ten," and "nine"; and then "eight" and "seven", almost together.

Sue look solicitously out of the window. What was there to count? There was only a bare, dreary yard to be seen, and the blank side of the brick house twenty feet away. An old, old ivy vine, gnarled and decayed at the roots, climbed half way up the brick wall. The cold breath of autumn had stricken its leaves from the vine until its skeleton branches clung, almost bare, to the crumbling bricks.

"What is it, dear?" asked Sue.

"Six," said Johnsy, in almost a whisper. "They're falling faster now. Three days ago there were almost a hundred. It made my head ache to count them. But now it's easy. There goes another one. There are only five left now."

"Five what, dear? Tell your Sudie."

"Leaves. On the ivy vine. When the last one falls I must go, too. I've known that for three days. Didn't the doctor tell you?"

"Oh, I never heard of such nonsense," complained Sue, with magnificent scorn. "What have old ivy leaves to do with your getting well? And you used to love that vine so, you naughty girl. Don't be a goosey. Why, the doctor told me this morning that your chances for getting well real soon were - let's see exactly what he said - he said the chances were ten to one! Why, that's almost as good a chance as we have in New York when we ride on the street cars or walk past a new building. Try to take some broth now, and let Sudie go back to her drawing, so she can sell the editor man with it, and buy port wine for her sick child, and pork chops for her greedy self."

"You needn't get any more wine," said Johnsy, keeping her eyes fixed out the window. "There goes another. No, I don't want any broth. That leaves just four. I want to see the last one fall before it gets dark. Then I'll go, too."

"Johnsy, dear," said Sue, bending over her, "will you promise me to keep your eyes closed, and not look out the window until I am done working? I must hand those drawings in by to-morrow. I need the light, or I would draw the shade down."

"Couldn't you draw in the other room?" asked Johnsy, coldly.

"I'd rather be here by you," said Sue. "Beside, I don't want you to keep looking at those silly ivy leaves."

"Tell me as soon as you have finished," said Johnsy, closing her eyes, and lying white and still as fallen statue, "because I want to see the last one fall. I'm tired of waiting. I'm tired of thinking. I want to turn loose my hold on everything, and go sailing down, down, just like one of those poor, tired leaves."

"Try to sleep," said Sue. "I must call Behrman up to be my model for the old hermit miner. I'll not be gone a minute. Don't try to move 'til I come back."

Old Behrman was a painter who lived on the ground floor beneath them. He was past sixty and had a Michael Angelo's Moses beard curling down from the head of a satyr along with the body of an imp. Behrman was a failure in art. Forty years he had wielded the brush without getting near enough to touch the hem of his Mistress's robe. He had been always about to paint a masterpiece, but had never yet begun it. For several years he had painted nothing except now and then a daub in the line of commerce or advertising. He earned a little by serving as a model to those young artists in the colony who could not pay the price of a professional. He drank gin to excess, and still talked of his coming masterpiece. For the rest he was a fierce little old man, who scoffed terribly at softness in any one, and who regarded himself as especial mastiff-in-waiting to protect the two young artists in the studio above.

Sue found Behrman smelling strongly of juniper berries in his dimly lighted den below. In one corner was a blank canvas on an easel that had been waiting there for twenty-five years to receive the first line of the masterpiece. She told him of Johnsy's fancy, and how she feared she would, indeed, light and fragile as a leaf herself, float away, when her slight hold upon the world grew weaker.

Old Behrman, with his red eyes plainly streaming, shouted his contempt and derision for such idiotic imaginings.

"Vass!" he cried. "Is dere people in de world mit der foolishness to die because leafs dey drop off from a confounded vine? I haf not heard of such a thing. No, I will not bose as a model for your fool hermit-dunderhead. Vy do you allow dot silly pusiness to come in der brain of her? Ach, dot poor leetle Miss Yohnsy."

"She is very ill and weak," said Sue, "and the fever has left her mind morbid and full of strange fancies. Very well, Mr. Behrman, if you do not care to pose for me, you needn't. But I think you are a horrid old - old flibbertigibbet."

"You are just like a woman!" yelled Behrman. "Who said I will not bose? Go on. I come mit you. For half an hour I haf peen trying to say dot I am ready to bose. Gott! dis is not any blace in which one so goot as Miss Yohnsy shall lie sick. Some day I vill baint a masterpiece, and ve shall all go away. Gott! yes."

Johnsy was sleeping when they went upstairs. Sue pulled the shade down to the window-sill, and motioned Behrman into the other room. In there they peered out the window fearfully at the ivy vine. Then they looked at each other for a moment without speaking. A persistent, cold rain was falling, mingled with snow. Behrman, in his old blue shirt, took his seat as the hermit miner on an upturned kettle for a rock.

When Sue awoke from an hour's sleep the next morning she found Johnsy with dull, wide-open eyes staring at the drawn green shade.

"Pull it up; I want to see," she ordered, in a whisper.

Wearily Sue obeyed.

But, lo! after the beating rain and fierce gusts of wind that had endured through the livelong night, there yet stood out against the brick wall one ivy leaf. It was the last one on the vine. Still dark green near its stem, with its serrated edges tinted with the yellow of dissolution and decay, it hung bravely from the branch some twenty feet above the ground.

"It is the last one," said Johnsy. "I thought it would surely fall during the night. I heard the wind. It will fall to-day, and I shall die at the same time."

"Dear, dear!" said Sue, leaning her worn face down to the pillow, "think of me, if you won't think of yourself. What would I do?"

But Johnsy did not answer. The lonesomest thing in all the world is a soul when it is making ready to go on its mysterious, far journey. The fancy seemed to possess her more strongly as one by one the ties that bound her to friendship and to earth were loosed.

The day wore away, and even through the twilight they could see the lone ivy leaf clinging to its stem against the wall. And then, with the coming of the night the north wind was again loosed, while the rain still beat against the windows and pattered down from the low Dutch eaves.

When it was light enough Johnsy, the merciless, commanded that the shade be raised.

The ivy leaf was still there.

Johnsy lay for a long time looking at it. And then she called to Sue, who was stirring her chicken broth over the gas stove.

"I've been a bad girl, Sudie," said Johnsy. "Something has made that last leaf stay there to show me how wicked I was. It is a sin to want to die. You may bring a me a little broth now, and some milk with a little port in it, and - no; bring me a hand-mirror first, and then pack some pillows about me, and I will sit up and watch you cook."

And hour later she said:

"Sudie, some day I hope to paint the Bay of Naples."

The doctor came in the afternoon, and Sue had an excuse to go into the hallway as he left.

"Even chances," said the doctor, taking Sue's thin, shaking hand in his. "With good nursing you'll win." And now I must see another case I have downstairs. Behrman, his name is - some kind of an artist, I believe. Pneumonia, too. He is an old, weak man, and the attack is acute. There is no hope for him; but he goes to the hospital to-day to be made more comfortable."

The next day the doctor said to Sue: "She's out of danger. You won. Nutrition and care now - that's all."

And that afternoon Sue came to the bed where Johnsy lay, contentedly knitting a very blue and very useless woollen shoulder scarf, and put one arm around her, pillows and all.

"I have something to tell you, white mouse," she said. "Mr. Behrman died of pneumonia to-day in the hospital. He was ill only two days. The janitor found him the morning of the first day in his room downstairs helpless with pain. His shoes and clothing were wet through and icy cold. They couldn't imagine where he had been on such a dreadful night. And then they found a lantern, still lighted, and a ladder that had been dragged from its place, and some scattered brushes, and a palette with green and yellow colors mixed on it, and - look out the window, dear, at the last ivy leaf on the wall. Didn't you wonder why it never fluttered or moved when the wind blew? Ah, darling, it's Behrman's masterpiece - he painted it there the night that the last leaf fell."



 
apple @ 2008-08-15 11:24

错过,
Reply……
   无反应……

        期待菲尔普斯的五个精彩瞬间,可却一次又一次的错过。第六次,接到小米的电话,得知直播时间10:12,CCTV-1。打开电视,一边听歌,一边等待,可10:30分后依旧没有看到小菲的身影。20个minutes闪过,我选择了继续等待。可当我再次关注电视屏幕的时候,却失望的看到比赛已经结束,我又一次错过了一个精彩瞬间。
  到底还有多少个这样的瞬间等待我去错过?等待的背后到底蕴藏了多少次错过?我的生命,还准许我有多少个错过?可是,我还会选择等待,这次要专心致志,心无旁骛的等待。我相信,等待的背后也藏着胜利的糖果,也许酸,也许甜,但无论怎样,都一样美味。


等待,
again……
   without any reason !
         But tor dream , the dream in my heart !

      等待,哪怕是地转天旋,我也不会放弃。等待,即使黑暗侵来,我也要用希望将其击破。


曙光,
 shining,
     We are the winner.



 
apple @ 2008-08-14 23:03



福原爱,我们的瓷娃娃,不要哭!
无论风雨怎样,你那张甜蜜的笑脸总会带给我们爱与希望。
无论风浪多汹,你那会心的眼神总会让人倍感踏实。
所以,这次你不要哭
因为你的笑脸是那么美丽,那么清新。
微笑吧,绽放你的美丽,
你的笑容将会使中日的友谊传承下去。
微笑吧,让你的微笑跨越亚洲,穿越世界,
让寰宇为你祝福。
微笑着走下去,
我们相信这样的微笑传承下去……








 
apple @ 2008-08-02 23:35

            

                                           











 
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